RYAN IT'S BECKY. I'M WRITING TO YOU IN YOUR JOURNAL.

CUM TO SANTA SNOOZE AND RESCUE ME FROM MY FINALS AND THESE HIPPIES SITTING ACROSS THE TABLE FROM ME WITH THEIR CAT ON A LEASE THAT LOOKS LIKE IT WANTS TO KILL ITSELF.

THANK YOU I LOVE YOU SEE YOU SOON.

ryanohh.wordpresss.com

i start school tomorrow. holy moly.

Date:	2007-07-01 19:05
Subject:	south/north.
Security:	Public
Mood:	good
Music:	tokyo police club.

summertime and the living's easy?! last week, harrison & i made ads on craigslist & we got a ridic amount of responses from gross old men! & then we went to mr. chow's with bailey and got the shittiest service ever. + papparazi was everywhere for no reason & all we saw was stupid mario. last night i went to the hear gallery in downtown la & we all danced outdoors & looked at shitty art. im leaving for san francisco tomorrow for fireworks & to be reunited with old loves! im very excited & i want to go to new york next month + i have to get my wisdom teeth out before i move out of the country? great. bye bye.

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MY PHONE WENT KABLOOEY TODAY & I LOST ALL MY NUMBERS SO BEEEE A LOVEY AND COMMENT WITH YOUR NUMBER PLZ! COMMENTS ARE SCREENED OF COURSE.

Date:	2005-05-24 20:16
Subject:	past.
Security:	Public
Mood:	good
Music:	simon & garfunkel.

i have a week & a half let of high school. here's a recap in photos of my senior year.



( senior year. )

the worst & best school year of my life. hands down.

GO 2 DISS

EXRAE VISION: ART SHOW ..2
WHEN: SATURDAY FEBURARY 24TH, 7:00 pm
WHERE: 433 E. MAIN ST. VENTURA, CA 93001 ..16
(down the hall accross from subway)
WHO:
Johanna Armes/fashion
Arianne Weir/fashion
Levok/fashion
+Motor Kid, Metric America, etc

Kelsey Jade/paint
Lauren Mosinka/mixed media
Fidel Villa/rock and roll photography
Stephanie Coyner/Holga photography
Garth Salstrom/photography
Patrick Shelby/photography
and many more!

musical artists include:
Bethany Sharayah
Broken Bead(ben & casy)
and maybe a few more

YOU NEED TO GO TO THIS PLZ:


CLINTON FEIN PRESENTS "UNCOVERED" AT UPFRONT GALLERY AT 267 S. LAUREL.

OK SO BASICALLY ITS THIS WAY COOL ART EXHIBIT WITH CONTROVERSIAL PICTURES OF THE IRAQ WAR, JESUS CHRISTS, PREZ BUSH & AIDS. WHETHER YOU ARE A CONSERVATIVE OR A LIBERAL IS IRRELEVANT. YOU SHOULD GO & HAVE AN OPEN MIND & BE INFORMED! THE SHOW ENDS MARCH 13. & ITS TIMES TILL THEN ARE:

THURS-SATURDAY: 12-5
SUNDAY: 2-5

I WENT & IT WAS REALLY INTERESTING & THE OWNER IS VERY ENGAGING SO CHAT HER UP!

SO PLZ GO AND STOP BEING LAZY LAME TEENAGERS LIKE ME KTHXBYE!

I LEAVE FOR HUMBOLDT IN LIKE 20 MINUTES. I WILL MISS YOU KIDS TERRIBLY SO CALL MY CELLPHONE PLZ. I'M REALLY HOPING THINGS WILL START TO MAKE SENSE WHEN I GET BACK BECAUSE RIGHT NOW, I AM SURROUNDED BY LIES LIES LIES & A BROKEN HEART. I WONDER WHEN I TRULY WILL BE MYSELF AGAIN.

BYE!!!!

Date:	2004-11-18 21:28
Subject:	LISTEN UP PLAYAS
Security:	Public
Mood:	happy
Music:	BADLY DRAWN BOY

OKEY SO PLZ GET STONED & GO SEE THE SWAMP MONSTER AT VENTURA HIGH. THATS WHAT I DID & IT WAS THE BEST EXPERIENCE OF MY LIFE. TRUST ME.

umookkkk come to my friend kaitlyns store opening friday september 17th OR DIE.


exrae
433 E. Main st. .16
Ventura, CA 93003


be hip. be there. there will be tons of cuteee things & musssssiccccc.
oh yeah & i have no idea what time it starts but id say 7? whatever i have no idea.

okbye

Date:	2004-06-21 23:54
Subject:	it's about to get old school up in herRE
Security:	Public
Mood:	good
Music:	sparrow's gate

Ok SO

I got a new webcam today.

& to celebrate: Here are some of my favorite old pictures from my OLD webcam, mostly from sophomore year.



( genesis )

CHANGE OF PLANS

yeah I decided to nix mixmytape because I missed my plethora of old entries here&the nice colors&i forgot why i switched in the first place.

ill have this journal for another year or so and then ill make a new one for college and stuff. im not good with fucking up continuity.

edit: im making this entry public because I believe it deserves to be. Its not one of those terribly raw personal entries, i think it holds relevance.

I'm listening to Bjork and therefore am an emotional fuck right now.

It seems like this year has really been a turning point. I've said goodbye to a few friends with NO REGRETS. I have new friends but then I look and with the exception of tessah and maybe caitie, I don't know them that well yet nor do I have all of their numbers. It's like they don't EXIST. And I wonder if they were based at first on superficial reasons like friendster&indie&weed. It probably was but that doesn't mean they can't progress beyond it righhtttt? I'm thankful for people like Becky & Kristy & Marc & Lisha & Tessah who really do know me and know that the music I listen to, the weed I am (or am not) smoking is not representative of me anyways. I really am just a sensitive boy who likes to laugh and really wants to be a writer and that, yes, music is so goddamn important to me but no so much the labels that accompany them. (c o n t r a r y to popular belief). I really want the best for everyone. For example, even though Wyatt's vagueness (in a lot of respects) irritates me, I want him to be loved by somebody because he really does deserve the best. Everything he feels, is probably what I feel in regards to the insecurity bull shit. And Amy. Even though that girl knows how to push my buttons and make me infuriated, I am grateful for her. She has been a big part of my life for so long and I can't imagine it without her. She means alot to me. And Marc, who I have no idea what the heck is going on with him. He seems to be really depressed and it makes me sad because he deserves an exciting LIFE. One bigger than the Westlake confinements. And I believe people like Vanessa, Wyatt and Brad and Rashonda, I definetely need to get to know them beyond the whole getting stoned thing and indie music. I could go on but the truth is, I'm tired. The bottom line is: no matter how fustrated i am at friends (their progess, their personality whatever) I do have good intentions. And that beyond all the superficial layers of rock star sunglasses and bright eyes, there lies a distinct genuine vulnerability in each one of my friends that makes them human and likable and real. I LOVE THEM.

This made no sense. i will regret writing this in the morning.

Date:	2003-10-22 14:37
Subject:	My trip thus far (travel log)
Security:	Public
Mood:	rushed

Note: I just talked to Becky and found out our Halloween plans...yay!

Ok here we go:

The plane ride was awful. It was a red-eye and I didn't sleep so as a result, I slept thru my first day in Jamaica. Our suite and resort is awesome. I'm, sitting on the window perch which I love. The second day was relaxing. I had breakfast (did I mention every meal is free and delicious?) and swam, laid on the beach etc. My bed is the worst bed i have ever slept on but I get my own room and bathroom so at least its private. The dreams I've been having have mirrored my feelings as of late perfectly. First off, I've been hit by the carribean fever of love and am very hot and bothered. However, there are no teenage girls so there is no one to get hot and bothered with. Consequently, I live it out only in my dreams. My first dream depicted a caribean liasion i\with a dominique swain look alike. My second prevalent feeling is home sickness. As a result, ,I've been having dreams that have been about me and my friends going out and having a good time. Mainly,they are centered around Kristy, Evan and I for some weird reason. last nite, I dreamnt we saw a Shirley Temple movie and we were all laughing and having a good time. It was nice.

So I love Jamaica but bottom line; I am homesick for my friends and my mom. O h well I am having a good time.

P.S. TODAY I LISTENED TO HILARY DUFF AND YEAH YEAH YEAHS, BELTING OUT EVERY LYRIC FULL BLAST AS THE JAMICIAN RAIN SPLATTERED ON MY WINDOW.

Much love,
Ryan

Indieadolescent: hmmm
LoserUnit2: maura made it for me so she coudl see your diary
LoserUnit2: her and amy
LoserUnit2: may just change the password
Indieadolescent: um WHAT
LoserUnit2: haha
LoserUnit2: they ended up not needing it
LoserUnit2: but soo much work
Indieadolescent: Why
LoserUnit2: why what?
Indieadolescent: why did they not needi t
LoserUnit2: because they found someone else
Indieadolescent: who?
LoserUnit2: i have no idea

UM YEAH FUCK YOU BOTH. AND WYATT EH FUCK YOU A LITTTLE

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Date:	2003-09-01 13:25
Subject:	A Dance-filled, Felicity-filled, Venice Beach-filled Weekend!
Security:	Public
Mood:	crushed
Music:	"I've Got A Feeling" Ivy

Public Entry for AMY

Um I just posted this entry but it said it was in read-only mode so I don't know....I guess I'll retype it!

This weekend was amazing. Friday, I lounged around and did nothing but it was like the good kind of nothing. Saturday, I went with Kristy & Megan to get Amy's B-Day gift. We then got FREE FOOD at Urban Cafe. I was rather content. I then bought Felicity Season One on DVD and so Becky came over and we watched like seven episodes. I definitely have reached my Felcity quota for the day. On Sunday, it was Amy's birthday and it was so much fun, such a perfect snapshot of being a teenager, that day was. There was dancing in the drum circle at Venice Beach, searching for a tatoo parlor, having a rave dance party on the Xtreme Limo Bus thing on the way back etc. The company was wonderful as well. I got to see Marc and I bonded with Tessah, it was all wonderful.
Not even my great weekend can allievate my feelings of shittiness though. Thanks for bumming me out x110045444455 Maura!

Hmm, While I was at Venice Beach, I bought rock star glasses and a Smiths tape.

GO!


WOW!


Tomorrows my birthday. Sweet 17!

Becky was here.

MY FRIEND AMY AND I NEED A RIDE TO BELLE AND SEBASTIAN ON SUNDAY. WILL PAY FOR GAS MONEY. IF YOU GAVE US A RIDE, WE WOULD LOVE U FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!!